Fasting isn’t what I expected.
Today I am fasting. It’s quite amazing to see the thoughts my mind has focused on today. It’s definitely not what I expected. I thought I would be hungry, cranky, complaining, and waiting for tomorrow to hurry up and come so that I could eat. Those thoughts entered my mind sometimes, but were quickly dismissed. It made me realize how fortunate I was to be able to eat, and eat a lot. I drove by so many tempting restaurants, but instead of wishing to go in, I actually felt so spoiled. I felt bad for having so much more than I deserve.
It was also just good to have the feeling of needing God. I felt like I prayed a lot more simply because I knew I was going through something hard and God was the best solution. I think that discovered the parallels between food and other earthly temptations. I can’t just give up food on my own. I know that the only way to keep my stomach from growling is to pray. I ask the Lord for help, for strength, to occupy my mind so I don’t think about the hunger. It helps me reverse the perspective of being hungry and instead start to be thankful. It got me thinking that if this works with food, why wouldn’t it work with any other type of earthly desire. Sex? Money? Power? All of those things are something that very easy take hold of my heart and steer it. Instead of giving in or feeling like it’s too hard, all I have to do is exactly what I did today. Just ask for help. It’s so stupidly simple, but it has to be genuine and it isn’t easy to give those things up. God will bring you through it, not you. Not your will power, not your self-control, God will empower you. Have faith and try for yourself!